I’m sitting here, nearly paralyzed with fear. Not fear of failure, a fear of succeeding. The past few months have been a maelstrom of highs and lows. Picture yourself in a galleon at sea in a storm. I feel as though I am only in eye of the storm, waiting for another massive blast depression. I have not stopped to consider that the storm just might be over. I do not believe in myself enough to stop for a moment and believe it will work out in my favor(resulting in a benefit to many of us that suffer from depression, anxiety, and other disorders). These are the reasons I push myself just a little bit more every day. I feel alone. When I finally remember that there are so many others like me. Paralyzed by “clogged” cells. Depression is brutal. OCD makes it worse. That all causes so much anxiety I just sit here typing. I’m not the only one. Neither are you.
Time to push a little harder today.