I am in control of so much that goes on in my life. The routine is only altered when I choose it to. I think that’s why I am pushing so far out of my comfort zone lately. The most exhilarating moments are the ones we don’t know that are coming. The intrigue is in the unknown. Be them happy or sad, bad or good, those moments are what make us feel the most. We can experience a full range of emotions normally, but the surprises are the highest form. That is what, in my opinion, drives the human race to excel. Pushing bounds we never knew existed.
Some people are able to take some solace in their faith, others either don’t share that faith, or are in doubt of it. So there are people that look forward to surprises and other who fear them. This manifests itself as anxiety, making some of us too afraid to try much of anything. Depression heightens the anxiety levels into nearly unmanageable levels. Lately I have had some pleasant moments a bit less anxious as I take steps out of the depression.
I turn here, to those of you that choose to read my thoughts, to reach out and share. I feel that many of you understand on so many different levels. I thank each one of you for reading. Peace to you and yours.