Being back to the grind has really made me challenge my creative side. When I started my journey just a few months ago my only goal was to leave the current situation I was in. I wanted to changes jobs, cities, and even be separated from my family for a short time. What I really think I wanted was a complete internal change. The only thing holding me back was myself. I had repainted my life’s mural into only shades of blue and gray. I had convinced myself that it was my external life that was broken. The only thing that had been broken was my internal self. The depression and OCD had become my whole self. All the while trusting in the Pharmaceutical business to be out for the well being of it’s recipients. When in fact they are only out for profit. Anti depressants that make you want to die. Pain killers that make you addicted to them. Cures with more horrible side effects than the current malady you have. It was only nature ways that helped me get to where I am now, which is far from healed, but much farther along the right road.
Some how along the way I become my own worst enemy. I think there are many people who kind of feel the same way. Why would there be an entire industry based on curing mental illnesses that only help exacerbate our troubles? All of our scars are the same depth to one another. My worst pain is no greater than your worst pain. They are both of equal in magnitude. Keep that in mind the next time you feel too low, you are not alone down there, we’re all here for you. Even without contact the empathy is felt to anyone who feels that down and out. We don’t know each others names, only each others pains. The world is listening. Until next time, peace to you and yours.