Sharing passions

https://www.instagram.com/jarredbrown525/ is me there.  But, this post is not about me.  The people I follow and that follow me are SO creative!  They are filled with passion and a lust for life that is inspiring.  They do with pictures what I try and do with words.

https://www.instagram.com/_themelter_/ works with wax and it’s so interesting!   https://www.instagram.com/iowacityfoodie/ has some awesome food  photos!  https://www.instagram.com/fullnessoflifechiro/is full of great inspiration!  https://www.instagram.com/cataluofficial/  is a great singer!  https://www.instagram.com/miss_mightyy_mouse/  has an amazing passion for fitness!   This is only a super short list,

Check out their work, you won’t be disappointed.

 

 

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How hard can it be?

Dealing with the US government and it’s offices is not the most efficient ordeal I have ever experienced.  I have now had to fill out the same form 3 different times and send it to 2 different places to get a copy of a simple vaccination record.  I fail to understand the run around for something so simple, but I will keep jumping through hoops until I get it all squared away.

I share this today because it is a source of great stress.  Why should such simple requests take over 50 days to then be told that I needed to contact a different location.  I cannot get into college without those records.  I was also selected to provide additional information regarding my financial aid request.  I have to wait for the IRS to send me the appropriate tax transcripts to be sent.  The accordion is playing and I keep dancing.  Is this an exercise in futility or patience?

Salmon again

I tend to enjoy making our salmon into something fun.  Today I’ll share my recipe for fun salmon with asparagus.  Lets get started!  Start with an 8oz salmon portion, 3 oz of Sweet Chili Sauce, 2 orange slices, brown sugar (quantities will vary), 2 cups of Rice Pilaf(or your favorite rice selection), 10 asparagus spears, 4 slices of bacon, a sprinkling of crushed red pepper flakes.  Preheat oven to 350f.  Score the salmon horizontally with 1/2 inch between each cut.  Then cut the fish in 1/2 the same way.  Place the orange slices in your pan and place 1 portion of salmon on each.  Pour 1 1/2 oz of the sweet chili sauce onto each portion of salmon(feel free to use more, as you like).  Wrap 5 spears of asparagus with 2 slices of bacon each.  Mix a small amount of brown sugar with your crushed red pepper flakes in a small dish.  Roll your bacon wrapped asparagus in that mixture until there is a nice coating on the bacon.  Place those soon to be amazing rolls of delicious into you pan with the salmon.  Place in the oven and bake for approximately 12 minutes.  Until your salmon is cooked to you liking.  Serve your now wonderful salmon on a bed of 1 cup of rice(less if you are not as hungry as I am right now).  The photo is one version without bacon wrapped asparagus.IMG_20170405_000202_616

I want to believe

Right off of Fox Mulder’s wall.  But what I want to believe in, is humanity.  I want to believe that we will push towards the utopia that Gene Roddenberry imagined in the Star Trek universe.  That is preached about in many religions.  That world that exists in which there are no adversaries among our own kind.  We stop having such negative thoughts about people that have absolutely no effect on our lives what so ever.  Race, gender, sex, religion, or even age.

I think we are too far from it for me to see it in my lifespan, sadly, but maybe my kids will enjoy it.

This is why I will study philosophy, religion, psychology, and biochemistry.  I want to learn how to understand all the people of the world.  I want to find the similarities that exists in every walk of life.  I choose biochemistry to find the way to finally lift the mass depression that seems to cover so many people.  So that they can learn to dream and believe again too.  It might sound crazy, but I believe anything is possible here on earth.

“Without change, something sleeps inside us, and seldom awakens.  The sleeper must awaken” – Frank Herbert.

College at 43

Getting accepted, setting up financing, and finding a place to rent from so far away is an incredible challenge.  Not to mention all the hurdles in each of those steps.

Some days I feel the challenge could be too daunting for me.  I know better, but doubt and depression go hand in hand.  I have been overwhelmed the past couple weeks.  I feel too much, think too much, react too much.  All because I want something more from life.  I don’t want the burden of OCD for the rest of my days.  I have no idea how to stop it, but I have to find out.  There has to be a biological reason that my cells don’t act/react the same as other people.  There also has to be a way to fix that.  Emotions and feelings are cellular reactions.  They are a physical response to stimuli.  Therefor there should be a reasonable way to repair a mis wired or malfunctioning set of molecules.  If depression can be lifted, even temporarily, by any means, then it is logical to believe that mental disorders can be fixed.  Cured.  The body can be healed, I just don’t know how yet.  Some kind of plant?  My favorite theory is the use of nanites to scrub the cells clean and repair any damage.  If they can do that, then they could rewire them to behave normally.  These are the things I think about as I cook at work.  This is what consumes so much of my time lately.  I’m obsessing over having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder…to me, that’s funny.

Peace to you and yours, from me and mine.  I hope your troubles flee from you.  I hope your days go well.  I hope the suns shines on you.

A normal day.

In recent months my life has been a jumble.  My once consistent pattern of routines has been disrupted by the internal need to change.  Change BACK to what I think I should have been, had my depression and OCD not ruled my actions for so long.

Today I am going to try and just have a  normal day.  No stressing about the future or the past.  Lately, when I try to take a day to let my mind rest, I feel guilty.  I feel like I had been at rest for so long, that if I try now, it’s just a total waste.  But a wise friend of mine nudged me a couple weeks ago.  Telling me that even now I need to let stuff go, for short periods of time.  I am paraphrasing, but the meaning is the same.  Even when we went to Skyzone and the go kart place on Sunday, I was constantly thinking about what needed to be done.  On the topic of Sunday, it was the first time my sons had ever driven go karts.  It was amazing fun.

I hope that all of you enjoy your day.  If I can help you, I will:)  Some one pick an ingredient and I’ll write a recipe for it:)

Trust Issues

Just recently I entered a verbal agreement with a local shop owner to sell some of my old collectable cards on consignment.  While for the most part everything seems on the up and up, I am noticing that not every sale is being credited to me.  There is no written agreement, so I cannot press the issue, but I really dislike that anyone would deal in a less than upfront and honest manner.  Most would consider my actions naïve, and while I agree, why can’t people just be honest and trustworthy?  Why is that no longer a trait that is exemplified in our business owners?  Have we as a country fallen so far that the norm is now to cheat, scam, or otherwise screw someone over?

The more I test peoples character, the more disappointment I get to experience.  Our work environment is another mine field of trust issues ranging from dependability to outright having to avoid hostile situations as they occur.  Should we all just give up and treat every person with suspicion?  I don’t want to.  I will continue to naively believe that each person can, when called upon in some manner, rise above what is normal and act in a manner more fitting a civilized society.  I will go out of my way to compliment people.  I will hold doors open for anyone.  I will continue to offer assistance, when the situation is dire.  I have been burned 1000’s of times, but I refuse to give in.  Have a great day, each and every one of you.  Peace to you and yours.

Why I dislike OCD

Because when I try and explain things logically, few people understand.  I don’t want to come to the worst conclusion first, it simply happens.  I don’t want to get wrapped up in nothing, but it happens.  I don’t want to see the world as dark and cold some days, but it happens.  I can’t walk it off.  I can’t shake it off either.  I am not able to chill out on command.  It is part of what plagues my mind. Sucks.

Some days I wonder just how many people have some form of OCD.  Does it trouble them as well?  Do any of you?  Would you tell me, even if you did?  If you do, you are not alone.