In the past week I have been personally reconciling my inner self. Sounds weird, but I have been at odds with myself for some time. After drudging up so many painful memories I cast myself into deep sadness, regret, and even anger. It’s been very difficult for me cast aside the things in my life that don’t belong. Things such as the feeling of not belonging where I am. I have spent a lot of time just thinking and planning and not really acting. So I have decided to take on a new hobby, candle making. The funny part to me is that I have been a butcher, a baker, and now…you see the punchline.
Normally in my past I would have simply gone back to my routine, but I know I have to alter it just a little bit. I first believed that I needed to shake up everything about myself and my life so that I was not so depressed all the time. Along that path I have really started to put more effort into where I am. Dedicating myself to my workplace, doing more activities with my family, and finding a healthier balance of my previous hobbies. It’s been a real challenge changing internally while causing so much discord with those around me. I hope they can all forgive me. I am sorry for all the trouble.
No one ever said having a mid life crisis was easy. The crisis is over, now I have to clean up my own mess. Thanks for listening. Until next time, peace to you and yours.